As always, the past couple summer weeks have been crazy busy. I don’t know how summer does it, but as soon as I say the words, ‘we don’t have a lot planned for the summer,’ my weekends suddenly become filled & weeknights are accompanied by dinners & athletic leagues.
However, I’m not complaining; summer break is amazing & it always allows me to recharge my batteries before the fall comes knocking on my door with after school grading and lesson planning.
The past couple weeks have delivered more terrific memories: our home town hosted OAR for their annual Music Fest, Tony and I celebrated a best friend’s 30th birthday, and I was able to travel to New York City to visit a best friend and cousin for a week. But before I carry on and on about some of theses great times to be had, I need to drop a no-so-good time, in need of reflection…
The day before I left for New York, [last Sunday to be exact], Ace had a seizure.
Without dragging out the play by play of the morning or all of the feelings I felt finding him on the patio with his eyes rolled back & foam coming out of his mouth, let me just say simply – I was a mess; a complete, sobbing mess, the rest of the day.
We took him into the emergency vet and had lab work done, which was normal, and he’s been back to his happy-go-lucky self [knock on wood!]. The doctor informed us he may never have one again or it’s the start of Idiopathic Epilepsy, which is basically a genetic disorder common in vislas, and his seizures would become more frequent and he would have to be placed on a type of medicine to help minimize the amount of seizures he would have daily.
The waiting game has been tough, both Tony and I are hoping Ace’s case will be he just had the one seizure and he won’t experience one ever again, but it also helps to know he can get help if he develops the disorder.
The rest of that Sunday afternoon, I couldn’t get control of my emotions, literally; I couldn’t stop my tears. It was an extremely scary experience, one I had dreams about the following week, but I think the other reason I was so down and emotional, was that I looked at this situation as another type of limitation in our life; in a life in which I was finally comfortable to move forward. Knowing the type of people Tony and I are, I knew we wouldn’t want to let Ace out of our sights: wouldn’t go on dinner dates, in order to be home with him, possibly wouldn’t take weekends away, afraid of leaving him with someone and the chance of having a seizure without us. And, on this particular Sunday afternoon, I just couldn’t handle another thing.
Like I’ve said before, there are moments I can’t find my silver lining or find the path out of my own darkness, but eventually, I do. I know this isn’t the end of the world and things can always be worse, and those are the things I continue to tell myself to help forward into positivity.
But enough of the heavy, onto one of the best trips I’ve had….
New York City.
My friend, Natalie and I, ventured to New York last week to see one of our best friends, Ali. We stayed at her apartment in Manhattan, considered to be in the The Upper West Side and took all the city has to offer.
We got caught in a city rainfall, we took in many views and rooftops, we drank rosé overlooking the Brooklyn and Manhattan Bridge with my cousin, we ate a couple authentic New York slices, we listened to a beat-droppin’ cover band in a bar basement in the west village, [I think – we saw A LOT of neighborhoods], we explored Eataly & sampled mozzarella, & we laughed, a lot, and promised we would be back together in New York in December, [I hope!].
It was a trip that came in perfect timing, a trip that put things into perspective, and a trip that allowed me to let my guard down and experience a handful of new things.
I can’t wait to go back.
Today, Ace and I are enjoying a rainy, movie day. It’s nice to use the excuse to just relax and snuggle – I know I’ll pray for a day like this, come early February in the midst of a school year, with plenty to do, [right, Nat? 🙂 ]
I’m off to price out soft tops for the Jeep and give Ace some more snuggles, as if I need an excuse to do that!
xo my hummingbirds