2014, you terrific little gal; you taught me many lessons, gave me many memories, & walked out of my life as quickly as you walked in. You taught me how to cope with grief. You showed me that I really can do projects myself. You gave me strength and courage to let go of things I can’t control. You reminded me how quickly time flies; which also reminds me to be happy with the moment I’m in.
New goals and resolutions need to be made. 2015 has appeared with a bang! My first meal? A mimosa & a slice of pizza; 2015 is coming out big.
My resolution for 2015:
1. Focus on Kaylee. There are many reasons this is my resolution & this resolution has a lot of meaning. In April, I will have been on chemo for two years. My hope, is that after my third year, I am able to get off chemo and have children. I need to make sure my body and my mind are ready for something as amazing as bringing a child into our lives. My resolution to focus on kaylee, means that I am going to get back on the green drink train, no processed foods, & start a regular work out routine. To focus on kaylee also means I need to improve myself mentally. I want to write more, reflect often, & connect with God again. I don’t write or refer to God as much as I should; I have my reasons for this, reasons some would not agree with, but I know I need him in this process. I need to ask him what he needs of me & how I can better myself as a person.
I have only one resolution. This resolution is very important to me. I want to keep it. I want to develop a healthier life style, not just for the next couple months, or year, but for my entire future. It is time to start taking control of my life. I am done waiting around for someone to tell me what to do or the next listening ear to hear me complain. I am done. I am going to be a new person this year. A newer, happier, relaxed, compassionate, humble, Christian person.
Happy New Year’s 🙂
xo