Hello there, it’s been a while.
I promise I am not going to make a point of these long absences in between blog posts. I could babble on about how time gets away from me & I have so much going on, but it would be a lie. I have been avoiding you guys.
April has washed over me with more emotions that I had anticipated. I didn’t want to write when I was in the dark or when I wouldn’t come off as positively as I want on this platform. Even though I’ve had since this fall to prepare, April of 2016 has been my end goal & now that it’s here, and nothing of my situation has changed, I have been struggling to ‘find my good.’
The other night, I was lying in bed, watching Tony put his clothes away, and I blurted, “Tony, I’ve just been so sad this month. I didn’t expect to feel so down.” I think there have been many times when I rely too much on his positive life outlook, his strength, and reason, but there are other times I know I need to let him in on what I’m thinking & how I’m feeling. I’ve gotten better at knowing when to talk something through & when to try to work it out myself.
Tony’s response to my down in the dumps comments was perfect: “You just got to keep swimming Kayls. You’re a much better swimmer than you think.”
Not only did he reference one of my favorite movies, [Nemo], he reminded me that life doesn’t stop because I’m feeling poopy and having a pity party for myself. He reminded me that I’m hanging in there much better than I think I am. And he reminded me how much I love him & how amazing he is in my life.
March & April have also brought some amazing memories & that’s what I need to focus on.
My grandpa taught me how to fry fish: [insert as many heart eye emojis as possible!]
He’s been keeping busy this past year & I think as every year passes, things are seeming to get easier for him & the rest of my family. However, with the arrival of spring, planting flowers, and hearing the birds sing, all I can think about is my grandma.
March also brought a girls weekend at Natalie’s cabin. It was perfect; for a weekend in March, we enjoyed a couple days of high 60’s, sipped mimosas on the beach of frozen Leech Lake, & had our own dance parties.
Tony and I dug out Ace’s bubbles from the back closet in the laundry room, and my afternoon was made watching him try to catch every single bubble by leaping high and sprinting low. He also poses really well for the camera
I attended a Ladies Night Out at a local greenhouse with my good friend, Heidi. We learned how to pot flowers, sipped on wine, enjoyed a couple happy hour appetizers, & simply caught up on life.
I celebrated my three year mark, as well. Even though it’s not the finish line, it’s still something to be proud of: we made it through three healthy years. Tony & I dined with Natalie and her husband, drank way too many bubbles, and stayed up way too late dancing in their living room. It was one of those sneaky, fun nights, that creeps up on you when you don’t expect it; definitely one to remember. I’m still somewhat recovering…
We hosted both of our parents & siblings over for bbqs & ate in our new dining room. It’s always awesome to have time with our families.
I also ran a 15k with my best college girlfriends last weekend, [my body STILL hurts], just to give that #effcancer topic another strong punch. After the run, we rewarded ourselves by grilling brats, eating veggie salad, and basked in the gorgeous Minnesota weather we’ve been privileged to have the past couple weeks.
& to top everything off, Tony & I attended the Mumford and Sons concert on Thursday night this past week, [another bucket list band]. It was truly amazing. They paid tribute to Prince [RIP] & sang all my favorite jams. They washed away my negativity and brought me back to my happy place.
I’m off to sip some bubbles, pull some weeds, & enjoy a fabulous dinner tonight with my sis.
xo my sweeties.